and i found myself in you

Jesus

so take me to a place

where i can see you face to face

all i wanna do, all i wanna do is worship you

when i was younger, i didn't believe in the 5 second rule. it's pretty nasty, but i ate anything and everything left on the floor. it's weird that i had to debate this only the other day. i dropped something in my cubicle as i was monchin down lunch. it's weird that the time lapse between fall of precious food to ground, to hand, to mouth dwindled. now i question, 'if i pick this up and eat it, would it be truly wrong'? 'is it... sanitary'?

hhahah.  =|   hm.

i'm bored.. come play with me!!!  take me to the movies, gosh!  idiot!

this week i took a little field trip downtown for work.  since my company is merging with HIP, they're trying to merge the databases together & it almost seems... like an impossible feat.  my company actually got the upper hand in keeping our database & that resulted in the other side having to learn our system & some pretty bitter/ ANGRYYY people. gosh.  so for the past 3 days, we've been cooped up in a room for 9 hours hacking out what they want to keep/add onto/get rid of under the umbrella company.  and the fun goes on and on and on... 

yea. i'm not sure why i was invited to these meetings.  half the time i don't know what these databases configure into & so i sit bleary-eyed in my corner, chug their ample supply of free coffee & try to perk up every time my senior director turns around.

one thing that i really liked is the location. the waterfront view is beautiful. the building has its own mini park overlooking the brooklyn bridge & staten island ferry.  i went out there for my lunch breaks & just soaked in all the sunny goodness.  i guess that's one of the few positives in all of this .. corporate chaos. 

i'm just kinda worried & re-thinking if i really want to stay with this job.  it's definately for someone who wants the corporate america thing & wants to excel up the ranks.  they've definately given me the opportunity to do that by offering the position that i have now. but i don't really want the corporate thing. my coworker was telling me that i don't have to worry about job placement; my resume with all the experience will get me into any health insurance company.  but... i wanted to tell her- who wants to stay in health insurance??  lol.

but i'm not ready to start anything new!!!  wat a bum!  my dream would be to take 3 months off & travel all of europe, africa & australia... and be a bum.  bumminy bum bum.